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Thursday, 20 March 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Martian Child
    By John Cusack, Joan Cusack, Amanda Peet, Bobby Coleman, Sophie Okonedo
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    I once throw alway my candy stash out of rage of my weight problem hoping that i finally made up my mind that i wouldn't gorge myself every time my mood wasn't set to happy.  All i did was just waste some 20 dollars worth of gourmet chocolates and made room for about dozen new types of sweet tooth filling depression suppressing hours.  About an hour ago i was going to do the same for my green stash and happy pills because maybe they were hindering me, but i didn't, I'm just not ready now.  I just need to outgrow it, a stage i need to fulfill.  i stopped thinking about the why, why now, why me, why am i here, its useless, i just need to live and be, and when i look back maybe 80 to 100 years from now, I'll hopefully find out...at least a bit.

Friday, 29 February 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Scream & Light Up the Sky
    By The Honorary Title
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    I'm such a night owl and i use to think its because its so quite at night and thats the only time i can get anything done, but living on my own for the past few month made me realize its just another form of procrastination for me.  During the day i sleep ...waking up around noon or a little before noon on a good day, then i start killing time...doing just about nothing.  Around dinner time i freak out thinking I've done nothing, and what do i do...kill more time watching tv...god i hate tv, but i can't live without it....and by the time i know it its midnight....now what do i do...i cook...really i was just making fruit tea and curry for tomorrow...in between this time  i surf the net do some work...and look what time is it...almost 5am...and what have i done...really not much...all the things on my important to do list i've got nothing done...nothing!  i suck at time management...

Wednesday, 29 August 2007

Friday, 17 August 2007

  • forgetting you is impossible,
    forgiving you is not,
    but what lies in forgiveness is harder
    is letting you go
    seeing that a part of me is you
    its hard to let go
    my love runs deeper then my pride
    and without it i lose myself
    I'm just not ready to lose myself
    you were so much a part of me
    and now i have no choice
    but to let you go
    and its more painful then you would ever know
    being forced to let you go
    my love runs deep and its hard to pull
    my tears runs dry
    my heart numb from pain
    still its unforgiving on its stand
    it won't let go
    it won't forgive
    it won't forget




    I can't forgive him because to forgive him is to let him go, and I'm just not ready yet.
  • Currently Listening
    Rise
    By Gabrielle
    should i stay
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    I've been alone for too long
    I've been alone for too long
    Did you want me to just welcome you
    With open arms
    Did you want me to fall at your feet
    Falling for your charms

    I've been alone for too long
    I've been alone for too long
    Always looking out for rainbows
    That's how I lived my life
    Always searching for rainbows
    Cos I want color in my life

    You've been away for far too long
    And I've been alone for too long
    I've been chasing your picture
    Around the corners of my mind
    But you keep getting farther
    Farther every time

    Everyday I travel, travel in time
    try my best to reach you
    I just don't know what I'll find
    Everyday I travel
    Everyday you lie
    Everyday it's harder
    Harder to forgive

    You've been away for too long
    I've been alone for too long
    Looking out for shadows
    thinking of you
    Chasing after shadows
    What am I supposed to do

    I've been alone for too long
    I've been alone for too long
    Did you want me to just welcome you
    with open arms
    Did you want me to fall at your feet
    Falling for your charms
    I've been alone for too long
    I've been alone for too long

    Gabrielle-alone

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